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Team Fortress II: The Most Awesome Match Ever!
It was near midnight on cp_fastlane. Red team had a bunch of clan mates and were dominating the blue team. Suddenly, all the blue team guys decided to go Engineer and built 12 level 3 sentries at their final capture point!!! I was with the red team. We decided to all go spy. For a few rounds in a row, we were all playing as the same class. The most epic battle took place when both teams, all 24 players, went Soldier. The rocket war was spectacular especially during the initial charge to the mid-capture point. I've played over 100 hours of TFII and this is the first time I've ever experienced such an awesome stacking of the same class.

Mission Possible: Project RAM Interlude
With Phase I complete (raise lean mass by 20kg), I decided to go for the Mission Possible challenge at the gym. The rules were simple, hit the gym 15 times in the month of May to stand a chance to win a bicycle or ski trip. I managed that in just 20 days. Now I'm pretty much burnt out (overtraining) so I'm going to rest for a week before starting Phase II, that will focus on cardiovascular health, an area that was neglected in Phase I. Free weights will also replace many machine based exercises.

Fever For The Flavour
Proper nutrition is within my grasp. I can finally say with confidence that I could feed myself consistently. Two years fending for myself and a _lot_ of failures in the kitches has taught me what works and what doesnt. For cooking is an art. I follow no recipes and start with the end in mind. Hmm, I have a tomato. I wonder what I can do with it... and go from there. I've also acquired a wonderful professional heavy bottomed saute pan for less than half price that enables me to cook seriously good sauces. I've binned my Gravox and shoved my teflon pans into the darkest corner of my cupboard. Deglazing FTW!

Russel Peter Say: "Be.A.Man"
I feel it in me. I cant explain it. I dont feel intimidated by life anymore. I feel like I'm up to the challenge. I know that I will triumph in the face of adversity. I know I can take care of myself. People interact with me very differently now. I feel that I have a much increased affect? Confidence in oneself. A healthier outlook on life. The dynamo of volition runs strong within me. I see it in the mirror. I see it in the smiles of others. I see the tattered social fabric of my life coming together. And if there ever was a judge of my character... I no longer stutter and lose words in the presence of the most beautiful woman I've ever known.

8 Comments:

Michael Chu said...

too lazy to make an account on lowyat so i'll post here instead.

You claim that because u were very underweight, you were a creep. but when u hit +55kg about a year ago (being put in the underweight category along with a large percentage of asians), why are u still single?

You've always put the blame on your physical appearance and how that has severity disadvantage u. Sure, you get more "looks" but you don't really know that. You don't ask the girl if she was smiling at YOU. You only think that she does, hope that she does.

Another point I'd like to raise. You say aim for the sky, trying to get the hottest chick. You do realize that the hottest chicks will already have been with and slept with a few guys. This usually means she'll have expectations on 'your proformance' Like in 40 year old virgin, you gotta slay a few 'hoodrats' because u go for the girl u like.

ezralimm said...

Michael: too lazy to make an account on lowyat so i'll post here instead.
Ezra: No worries.

Michael: You claim that because u were very underweight, you were a creep. but when u hit +55kg about a year ago (being put in the underweight category along with a large percentage of asians), why are u still single?
Ezra: Dude, im 1.74m. @55kg, my BMI would be only 18.1. A very small percentage of 23yr old asian (ethnic chinese/malay/indian malaysians) will have such a BMI. Dont believe? Survey your friends. Those 23 yr old guys with such BMI's really do look thinner than the average thin joe you bump into on the (malaysian) streets.

Michael: You've always put the blame on your physical appearance and how that has severity disadvantage u. Sure, you get more "looks" but you don't really know that. You don't ask the girl if she was smiling at YOU. You only think that she does, hope that she does.
Ezra: I digress. I've said it before (in lowyat as well) and I'll say it again - LOOKS/MONEY ARE IRRELEVANT when it comes to love. It really boils down to cultural and emotional compatibility. That said, having looks/money/power will make girls naturally want to know more about you, and be more willing to befriend/empathize with you. To know about others and to have others know about you is the basis for human relationships (not only romantic ones btw, and yes my social life has been picking up steadily). I find that following Project RAM, people in general want to know more about me, and tend to remember what I say about myself - it is then up to me to do the same and remember things about them. It's really hard to explain... eg. the cute girl at my workplace I barely know tells me by the water cooler (literally! lol) all these little details about her life to me, and giving me opportunity to empathize with her...get the drift?

Michael: Another point I'd like to raise. You say aim for the sky, trying to get the hottest chick. You do realize that the hottest chicks will already have been with and slept with a few guys. This usually means she'll have expectations on 'your proformance' Like in 40 year old virgin, you gotta slay a few 'hoodrats' because u go for the girl u like.
Ezra: Hahaha, speculate all you want. I could call you a sexist SOB for advocating guys to treat desperate women as "hoodrats"...and insinuating that pretty girls are unchaste (though i kinda agree with you =) ) lol... anyway, all I can say in a public venue such as this is that following the success of Phase I of Project RAM, I have been dating - But I am still waiting to find someone whom im emotionally and culturally compatible with. And it's not about going after the "hottest chick". I have never said that, even in my feature article in lowyat (I said something quite to the contrary if you actually read it to completion). I do however want to be with someone I find acceptably attractive who is emotionally/culturally compatible with me.

Ideals are ideals. They are usually unreachable. Yeah. I aim for the sky...knowing that I will land on the treetops. The ideals still stand, they motivate me to be all I can be. To thrive in life. To go out mix and mingle. To be the best I can be.

I know I'm on the right track. My platonic and romantic social lives are picking up, my career path is pretty much set, and I just feel good.

The search continues...

AWESOME.FTW!!!

Michael Chu said...

Ezra: Dude, im 1.74m. @55kg, my BMI would be only 18.1. A very small percentage of 23yr old asian (ethnic chinese/malay/indian malaysians) will have such a BMI. Dont believe? Survey your friends. Those 23 yr old guys with such BMI's really do look thinner than the average thin joe you bump into on the (malaysian) streets.

That's just an excuse to be honest.

"LOOKS/MONEY ARE IRRELEVANT when it comes to love."

I have to disagree. That ALWAYS comes later. You don't just fall in love with someone. and yes, I agree with u that it does come down to cultural and emotional compatibility when you're in love. But the girl HAS to like you before they fall in love with you. And how does a girl like you? PERSONALITY. Looks (not so much money unless they're a drug addict) does play a role in it as well. Like what you said, you have to have some looks (not being a creep) to get a girl to like you. And yes, you have done that already.

I'm glad to hear that you're dating though. But make sure the 'date' is mutual. saying like "hey, are u hungry? want to grab a bite?" isn't considered a date. it's considered as a friend taking another friend for food. A real date is actually planning it and dressing up for it and dropping her off at home and hopefully get a 2nd date etc.

ezralimm said...

Micheal: That's just an excuse to be honest.
Ezra: ZZZzzz I meant exactly what I said. There is no point arguing and i think it's just better to agree to disagree on this one.

Micheal: I have to disagree. That ALWAYS comes later. You don't just fall in love with someone. and yes, I agree with u that it does come down to cultural and emotional compatibility when you're in love. But the girl HAS to like you before they fall in love with you.
Ezra: Call me a romanticist. I really believe love is blind. Looks/money dont matter when it comes to love... I contend that humans are just so damn picky on who they are willing to fall in love with lol. People "like" hanging out, spending time, empathizing with, attractive people - whatever your definition of "attractive" may be. So yeah, a girl has to "like" you before she "fall in love" with you.

Micheal: And how does a girl like you? PERSONALITY. Looks (not so much money unless they're a drug addict) does play a role in it as well. Like what you said, you have to have some looks (not being a creep) to get a girl to like you. And yes, you have done that already.
Ezra: Yup. Personality + Raw Animal Magnetism + Thriving In Life are all important. To be honest, I do feel that personality ensues from thriving in life. When you are thriving, eating well, sleeping well, and having lots of friends, your personality automatically develops. You become awesome. You know it. Your friends know it. The girl across you on the bus knows it. Yeah!

Micheal: I'm glad to hear that you're dating though. But make sure the 'date' is mutual. saying like "hey, are u hungry? want to grab a bite?" isn't considered a date. it's considered as a friend taking another friend for food. A real date is actually planning it and dressing up for it and dropping her off at home and hopefully get a 2nd date etc.

Ezra: Course dude. For me, date = dinner for two. Or (quite literally) a long walk on the beach =D yeah! But seriously, dates arent practical sometimes, especially for people from outside your social circle (ie. random people you meet in your daily life - at work, at uni etc.). If you ask a girl if she's seeing someone, and then even offer to buy her coffee... i think it counts. She would have to be pretty retarded if she didnt know what your intentions were.

Michael Chu said...

I contend that humans are just so damn picky on who they are willing to fall in love with lol. People "like" hanging out, spending time, empathizing with, attractive people - whatever your definition of "attractive" may be. So yeah, a girl has to "like" you before she "fall in love" with you

Humans ARE selfish by nature. We are all greedy. Yes. A girl has to like you before she fall in love with you. That's what I'm saying. But it's your PERSONALITY (cultural/emotional compatibility) that she falls for. The like is predominantly looks/first impressions/paying more attention to her. But STILL mainly personality. I know a few fugly guys that score hot chicks. why? because they have personality. Alpha males also wins.

To be honest, I do feel that personality ensues from thriving in life. When you are thriving, eating well, sleeping well, and having lots of friends, your personality automatically develops. You become awesome. You know it. Your friends know it. The girl across you on the bus knows it. Yeah!

Personality doesn't ensues from thriving in life. Personality is who you are and always will be. You're talking about confidence. If you are a shy guy, you will always be a shy guy somewhat (not in all situations)

If you ask a girl if she's seeing someone, and then even offer to buy her coffee... i think it counts.

Bro, even if I was that girl, i would take a free coffee. Doesn't really matter what the guy/girl looks like. If a random girl off the street asked if I was single (which i'm not) and asked if I wanted some coffee, I would say "sure" because it's free coffee and a fricking big compliment to the person you're buying coffee for. Yes, there are girls that will say no because they are being nice and not giving you false hope. Some will say yes and mean it and majority will say yes for free coffee (because we humans are all selfish greedy people by nature)

For all the free stuff you've been giving girls, out of how many TRULY liked YOU (not your money, your car, you being a med student)

Seeing how you take the initiative, you have to like the girl by physical appearance which means you could see yourself liking her. You're a guy right? how could u not like sex. Guys date girls because of sexual attraction. You know that. I am surprised that you're not in a relationship yet after all this talk on all these girls you've had dates with though.

ezralimm said...

Micheal: Humans ARE selfish by nature. We are all greedy. Yes. A girl has to like you before she fall in love with you. That's what I'm saying. But it's your PERSONALITY (cultural/emotional compatibility) that she falls for.
Ezra: Semantics. I've been saying the same thing.

Micheal: The like is predominantly looks/first impressions/paying more attention to her. But STILL mainly personality. I know a few fugly guys that score hot chicks. why? because they have personality. Alpha males also wins.
Ezra: Note the word "few".

Micheal: Personality doesn't ensues from thriving in life. Personality is who you are and always will be. You're talking about confidence. If you are a shy guy, you will always be a shy guy somewhat (not in all situations)
Ezra: Whatever. Dont care because I've never been like that.

Micheal: Bro, even if I was that girl, i would take a free coffee. Doesn't really matter what the guy/girl looks like. If a random girl off the street asked if I was single (which i'm not) and asked if I wanted some coffee, I would say "sure" because it's free coffee and a fricking big compliment to the person you're buying coffee for. Yes, there are girls that will say no because they are being nice and not giving you false hope. Some will say yes and mean it and majority will say yes for free coffee (because we humans are all selfish greedy people by nature)
Ezra: Believe whatever. I have won dates from this method before.
TO OTHER READERS: Guys, do not let what Micheal said dampen your confidence. Sure, some girls will give you false hope. But assume the best from the start. From my experience, few girls will lead a guy on unless she is genuinely interested in him. Worse come worse, she wasnt creeped out and it's always nice to have a chat with a lady...even if you find out she's taken later. It builds your social skills and overall personality.

Micheal: For all the free stuff you've been giving girls, out of how many TRULY liked YOU (not your money, your car, you being a med student).
Ezra: Free stuff? Hahaha. Where the hell did you get that idea from?

Micheal: Seeing how you take the initiative, you have to like the girl by physical appearance which means you could see yourself liking her.
Ezra: Did you actually read my reply? Dude.. Girls are actually taking the initiative now. It's AWESOME!

Micheal: You're a guy right? how could u not like sex. Guys date girls because of sexual attraction. You know that.
Ezra: WTF are you insinuating now? that im a girl??? Or that i dont like sex?? hahahahaha, you're so deluded. And yeah, you dont have to repeat what I have been saying over and over again, both in this blog and in my feature article at lowyat.

Micheal: I am surprised that you're not in a relationship yet after all this talk on all these girls you've had dates with though.
Ezra: The game of love avoids the public eye. I will not divulge any details of my current relationship status online publicly unless I have been going steady with someone for a considerable amount of time AND can see myself spending my life with her. You can speculate all you want. I admit/deny nothing.

Anonymous said...

I think that at this stage Michael is just splitting hairs.

Eating right, exercising, looking good, having your finances handled isn't about girls. It's about you. It's about your LIFE. If you have these things sorted, the better your chances of living your life the way you want it to be lived. Ergo, the better your chances of finding the girl you would really click with. It's not about women. It's about control over your own life.

A lot of guys are thrust into the world without even having this. Control over their own lives. So they must eke out a living begging and appealing to others based on pity, humility, and beliefs. They resign themselves so they will be happy with this. As long as they get enough crumbs, they shall be satisfied.

You know enough that this shall not be your fate.

Please continue what you are doing. You are already developing a personality. This personality has the trait of discipline and willpower, if nothing else. People will notice it.

ezralimm said...

Thanks for the positive feedback!

Anonymous: A lot of guys are thrust into the world without even having this. Control over their own lives.
Ezra: I dont think anyone comes into the world having control over their life. Everyone was a kid some time ago ;-)

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